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It’s a…. BOY!!!

That’s right ladies and gents… C and I are expecting a baby boy!!! Little baby N will be arriving this summer and will be rounding out our little family. We will both be hanging the closed for business signs over our uteruses… or would it be uterus’ or uteri? Any who… We had our gender reveal party about 2 weeks ago, I know, I suck but I’m thinking of setting a weekly alarm to get me to blog more… Shoot, don’t feel neglected, my journal hasn’t gotten any action from me in moons as well so just know that I’m sharing the non writing love…

Back to business… For baby C we did a gender reveal cake, for baby N we decided to do a ballon pop. We cleaned the house, cooked dinner and decorated ourselves after spending countless hours on Pinterest… Our family and friends arrived, we ate dinner, had dessert, played a little game and then popped the ballon promptly at 5:30 pm. C has been saying that she thought it was a boy since the first day that we found out we were pregnant so imagine our reaction once the blue confetti fell from the ballon!!!!

I’m so ecstatic! We will have a boy and a girl and I know baby C will be an awesome big sister! I do have my fears about raising a little black boy in one of the most crime riddled cities in America but I know that God wouldn’t have blessed us with him if He didn’t think we were capable of doing the right things.

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16 Weeks Pregnant and Relactation!

That’s right! C is 16 weeks pregnant today and we are looking more and more forward to the gender reveal party. So far, she hasn’t had one but of morning sickness! She did have a few days in the beginning where she had heartburn but otherwise, her prayers were answered and I’m happy because morning sickness sucks and C has horrible motion sickness! I look at her each day in awe and amazement. I still can’t believe that she’s pregnant and that we will be parents again come summer. 🙂

So, initially when we were discussing TTC, C was going to go first since she’s older. Then we decided that I would go first and we would have the babies close together so that I could breast feed both of them. Well, if you’ve been following my blog you know how breast feeding went with Baby C but despite it if been seriously thinking about trying to relactate so that I can breast feed Baby #2. I know that I can comfort nurse or use a SNS if nothing comes of my efforts.

For those unfamiliar with my past struggle, nursing became a time of stress and frustration in our house. I had a breast reduction about 12-13 years ago and of course they warn you that there may be that chance that you won’t be able to breast feed. I thought I would never have kids and I was young and not thinking about what may happen in my future. I was able to pump while in the hospital but it was slow getting my milk to come in and the fact that I had a C section didn’t help either. I finally got up to pumping an ounce or so in 15 minutes. Baby C was beginning to get jaundiced and we supplemented with formula and a syringe. My nipples were flat. She wouldn’t latch and the nipple shield only helped a bit. Eventually, once we got home, some times she would latch perfectly other times not. By then she was getting a bottle with formula and my breast never felt full like everyone said they would. I continued to pump every 2-3 hours. Eventually, I was getting close to 2 ounces a session. My left boob was always the over achiever. Eventually, I stopped pumping between 8-10 weeks and we went to formula full time.

Fast forward to today. My daycare baby is breast fed. Her mom brings bags and bags of milk for her and sometimes I long to be able to do the same. One night last week, while co-bathing, Baby C starts to notice my nipples. She’s nearly 10 months so this shocked me. She plucked them at first. Then a few days later, she did the same only this time to went to put it in her mouth. I let her hoping that she would want to nurse and that maybe, just maybe, I would be able to get SOMETHING flowing again. She BIT me. HARD. LOL.

About to days ago, I told C that I was reading about relactation. She was totally on board. I joined a few groups on Facebook and read tons of success stories. Even stories of women who were never pregnant breast feeding their adopted babies. I took some fenugreek and pumped about 3-4 times that day. By the last pumping session, I noticed a head of clearish liquid on my nipple. I was beyond excited. I took and pic (weird. I know) and texted it to C. I was even able to coax out another drop through hand expression. I didn’t pump yesterday tho but I’m pumping now as I write this blog.

I’m less stressed this time and have absolutely no expectation of producing much of anything. If I do, great! If I don’t, that’s fine too. Bottom line, I’ll still be able to breast feed via SNS or comfort nurse our new little one and for this I am thankful.

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13 weeks 5 days

It seems like the weeks are steadily rolling by and I’m seeing a baby bump slowly peeking out from my wife’s once flat abdomen. It’s cute. It’s sexy. It’s making me love her even more than I already do… And I’m not even sure that’s possible. She felt Sprouty moving around for the first time on Sunday and my heart filled with joy. I know it will be about a month or so before I can feel it but I remember how I felt when I felt Baby C moving around in my belly for the very first time. I cherish those special moments that no one on the outside knew we were sharing and I’m so grateful that my wife will forever have that experience. I’m so thankful that she’s giving me this experience from the other side of the belly.

Her strength is regal. She is beauty.

Long Over Due… For a REAL update

Ok, so since I had that Halloween update sitting in my phone and didn’t hit publish until dang on near Christmas, I figured it only proper to give you all a REAL update on things over here at the CNC headquarters…

Baby C turned 9 months yesterday!!!! I know… We can’t believe it either!!!

Updates on Baby C:

  • She’s a crawling maniac
  • She has 2 bottom incisors and the top are presently coming in
  • She says: Ut oh, Go Go Go, ahbye (bye bye), and hey
  • Her favorite shows are: The Chica Show, Super WHY! and Tree Fu Tom
  • She also enjoys Barney and Calliou
  • She’s cruising and she takes the daring chance of letting go every now and again
  • And we are beginning to introduce her to more solids… I suppose you can say we are going baby led weaning
  • I now have 3 kids enrolled in my daycare and I’ve begun crocheting more… Orders are pouring in for hats and scarfs and I’m thinking of investing in a sewing machine and teaching myself how to make cloth diapers…

    C is doing awesome! She recently got a promotion at work and things are moving along smoothly…

    But on important piece of our journey that I would like to share is…

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    That’s RIGHT! We are expecting Baby #2!!! We are becoming a family of four… But, I’m on the opposite side of the belly this go round!!! With this exciting news, I plan to update more often… So, another update soon comes because I don’t want to make this entry too long.

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    Happy Halloween

    Here is another old post that was just sitting in my phone waiting to be published… More recent posts to come… I promise.

    I know it’s been aeons since I’ve blogged… Life has been moving and Baby C has been growing… She’ll be 8 months next Thursday! C and I have also been learning to be awesome moms to our little girl.

    So much has happened since my last blog that I don’t even know where to begin… I guess I can begin by letting you guys know that I’m an official SAH/WAHM… I haven’t been at “work” for someone else since the week before I had Baby C. The paychecks officially stopped coming in August. I decided to open an at home daycare so that I could be home with Baby C. It just made sense for us financially that I didn’t return to the workforce and I finally get to do what I love… Spend my day with kids! As of today, I have one infant enrolled. If I can get 1-2 more children I’ll be happy…

    Here Liebster, Liebster

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    Ok, so here’s the deal… I was nominated not once but TWICE for a Liebster… Pretty impressive sh!t right?! Well, maybe not to you but it’s a big damn deal to me! I’ve always eyed blogger awards and secretly wished I’d been awarded with one… Well, Camille from And Just Add Water and Nell from Four Completes The Set nominated me because they obviously think I’m cool and dig my writing!

    Any who! Blogger awards are such a great way to learn more about your fellow bloggers. This is a way for small bloggers to give recognition to other small bloggers (200 followers or less). Here’s how it works:

    Copy & Paste This Whole Post and Replace All Your Information — who awarded you, for example.

    The rules:

    Thank the Liebster Blog presenter who nominated you and link back to their blog.
    Post 11 facts about yourself, answering the 11 questions you were asked and create 11 questions for your nominees.
    Nominate 11 blogs who you feel deserve to be noticed and leave a comment on their blog letting them know they have been chosen.
    Display the Liebster Award logo.
    No tag backs meaning you can’t just re nominate the person who nominated you.
    As Solo the First put it “The real purpose behind these nominations are not only as an accolade from a fellow blogger and let’s face it, nothing gently strokes our little writer hearts more than someone telling you they appreciate your work. In addition to the back patting we need to receive from time to time, it also allows us to get a little more personal as we get to know our increasing blogging community. It also helps drive traffic to your site as we reference one another.”

    The questions put forth to me (with my answers) are as follows:
    1. What is the best book you’ve read recently? Best book recently, hmmmm… The last book that I completed was The Hunger Games, I think. And it was pretty awesome…I actually read the entire trilogy (minus the last few chapters of the third book) and loved it!

    2. Name a pet peeve.I don’t want to seem like a English snob but it burns the hairs on my soul when people type “an” or “in” and they mean “and.” Shoot, bad grammar is a pet peeve in general.

    3. If you could travel any place and money was not a factor, where would you go? Germany… Call me what you may but I’ve wanted to go ever since I was a horny teen age girl sneaking to watching Real Sex on HBO… They have great sex toy shops there.

    4. If you could go to any concert, whether they are dead or alive, broken up or together, who would it be?Erykah Badu and Jill Scott. Together. And because of my darling wife… I’m a newly converted Mint Head so we are always at Mint Condition concerts.

    5. Red wine, white wine, beer, or water? Red wine.

    6. Do you have a celebrity look-a-like? If so, who?I don’t think so but I’ve been told that I look like Kim Reese from A Different World.

    7. What are three blogs you read most often?My attention span is so short and Mommy brain still reigns supreme so most days I totally forget about blogs but when I do get around to reading them, Four Completes the Set, And Just Add Water, and Good Families Do.

    8. What is your guilty pleasure?Cheesecake.

    9. What is one skill or hobby you’re interested in learning?Being a Doula

    10. What are five words that best describe you?Spiritual, Patient, Kind, Positive, Loving

    11. Beach or mountains?Beach.

    1. What is your greatest fear?It was that I’d never get married and have kids and that I would be old and alone… Being a failure is up there near the top tho.

    2. What is your greatest accomplishment?Having my daughter, getting married, having a family of my own, starting my own business… Couldn’t name just one.

    3. What public behaviors do you find the most offensive?
    Obscenely loud talking.

    4. If you could change one law in the State where you live what would it be?Equality in ever sense need to be the mandated law.

    5. When you leave this earth what is the one thing most people will say about you and the life you lived?That I did the right thing and had a kind heart.

    6. You are at your happiest when?___________ Spending time with my family, Doing anything domestic… But cooking/baking mainly.

    7. What is your favorite quote or saying?Live, Laugh, Love

    8. What is the one little known fact that most people will find surprising about you?I developed a crab allergy in my mid 20’s.

    9. How many slices of pizza do you typically eat in one sitting?2

    10. What is your favorite holiday?I never really thought about this but maybe Thanksgiving.

    11. Are you #TeamiPhone or #Blackberry? #TeamiPhone

    Now that that’s out of the way, here are my nominations… In no particular order of course…
    Four Completes the Set
    Good Families Do
    And Just Add Water
    Our Apron Strings
    Two Moms to Be
    Mommy Loves Martinis
    A Story of Two Moms
    Weigand Writes
    2 Girls and a Baby
    Beginning Miracles
    Wedded Wife

    And now, the moment you’ve all be waiting for… My questions:

    1. What is the first commonality that you look for when meeting someone new?
    2. Books or TV?
    3. What is your favorite time of day?
    4. What is your passion?
    5. Are you currently living or operating in your passion?
    6. Do you still believe in the kindness of humanity?
    7. When seeking hope, where do you focus?
    8. Bandwagon or walk to the beat of your own drum?
    9. Chocolate or vanilla?
    10. Grits or oatmeal?
    11. If given one day to make an impact on someone’s life, what would you do?

    And there you have it… Of course it took me two days to complete this in my typical fashion but its done! Thanks for the nomination and check back for future blog updates.

    One. Step. Further.

    Yep, I’ve taken my cloth addiction one step further and made reusable cloth wipes today… And, I must say that I LOVE THEM! They leave Baby C’s bottom feeling all soft and smelling refreshed… I was tempted in using a wipe to wipe her down and forego a bath… I did forego the bath but didn’t wipe her down with the wipe because she was already sleepy, hungry and irritable so I left well enough alone, changed her, fed her and off to sleep she went…

    Anywho… I love Dr. Bronner’s soap. I usually use the peppermint version but I figured that one would be a little too tingly for Baby C’s bottom so I bought the lavender version. I read online how one lady cut up old tee shirts to make wipes and I was about to venture into the basement to find an old tee shirt when I saw the TONS of wash cloths that we received at the baby shower. I figured why not use these… So, I took the thin ones out of the closet to make wipes and left the thicker ones for bath time. I had an old wipe container so I folded the washcloths in a manner that would allow another to pull up once you pull the one on top of it. I sat the stack aside. I boiled some water just enough to kill any germs. I measures out 1 cup of water and poured it into a jar. Then I added 1 tbs of coconut oil and 1 tbs of Dr. Bronner’s soap. I put the top on the jar and shook it to mix it. I poured half of the solution into the wipe container and then sat my stack of wipes inside. Then I poured the remaining solution on top of it. I closed the container and gave it a good shake. I did make one more cup of solution and poured it on the middle of the wipes just to make sure all of them were saturated. Closed and gave it another good shake and viola! Homemade reusable cloth wipes!

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    Addicted… To cloth

    I’m addicted to cloth. I’ve wanted to cloth diaper Baby C for quite some time now but I’ve always been overwhelmed with all of the choices when it comes to cloth diapering… One thing that I know about myself is I become easily overwhelmed when presented with too may choices. AIO’s, AI2’s, prefolds, flats, pocket, fitteds, covers, snaps or aplix… You see what I mean… And let’s not get started on brand! There are so many major brands and then so many cute WAHM diapers!

    So, about a week or so ago I was in Target getting stuff for our first beach trip with Baby C and guess what I saw on the clearance rack? TWO THIRSTIES DUO DIAPERS for $4.18!!!!!! These dipes are normally about $12-$17 a pop! So, all of my overmelmedness… I’m sure that’s not a word but who cares, went out of the window and I grabbed them. They were pocket diapers with aplix closures… Got them home, washed them, threw one on Baby C and I fell in love with this phenomenon called cloth diapering! Since then, I have a meager stash of about 11 pocket diapers and 6 prefolds. I would ideally like to have a minimum of 24 dipes in rotation. I am waiting on 2 in the mail and sadly, I will be selling the cute bargain dipes that started me off because they are size 1 and a bit snug on Baby C…

    Do any of you guys cloth diaper or plan to cloth diaper your baby? I highly recommend giving it a try… And it doesn’t hurt that there are so many cute prints!

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    The Birth of a Piglet

    I love how things come full circle. It has a way of letting you see completion. In December of 2010 C and I drove to The Birchmere in Arlington, VA to see Mint Condition, C’s favorite band, in concert. Since then, we’ve gone to every Mint Condition concert in our area over the last three years. So, imagine C’s heartbreak when the RE gave us a due date of March 21st and the Mint Condition concert dates were March 19th & 20th. C didn’t buy tickets because we didn’t want to chance it. The tickets sold out. The morning of the 19th C asked if I wanted to take a chance, drive to VA and see if someone would be scalping tickets. I figured what did we have to lose at the least we could get dinner if we didn’t get in. Everyone who knows us knows that all we mostly play for baby C is Mint Condition so they all said the concert would put me into labor. Needless to say, we took the hour and forty five minute drive, stood in line for about an hour and GOT tickets! The show was awesome and baby C was dancing in my belly the entire time.

    The next day was our weekly appointment with the OB and I was praying for some progress since the previous week bought no news at all… No dilation… No effacement… No nothing. So, this time we go in and I place my feet in the stirrups, the OB said I was 1 cm dilated and 80% effaced! We were all impressed with the progress that I had made over the course of a week. According to her records and by using my last menstrual period, my due date was the upcoming Monday. Since I had been so miserable for the last few weeks, she had scheduled for us to come in at 5:30 am Tuesday, March 26th to be induced. Her last words before we left her office was to not go into labor over the weekend because it wasn’t her weekend on call and that she planned on getting some sleep. LOL. C and I walked out of the office feeling elated! As much as we wanted Baby C to chose her own birthday, having a date set for induction gave us a light at the end of a long 40 week tunnel.

    We arrived home and settled in for the evening. For those of you following my blog know my struggle with heartburn and I had taken my last Prilosec that morning. C mentioned running to the liquor store for beer and I was going to tag along and buy a 7 day supply of Prilosec. I jokingly looked at my belly and told Baby C that she could come now since I really didn’t want to buy any more Prilosec. C changed her mind about the liquor store and I decided to just get my Prilosec in the morning. We watched a bit of TV, lounged around the house and I decided to grab my sage stick and smudge Baby C’s room in preparation for her arrival. We settled in to watch the season finale of Unsung around 10 pm. Regardless of how I positioned myself on the sofa, I could not get comfortable. My back began hurting around 10:30-10:45ish. I told C about my discomfort and pain and decided to go lay in the bedroom for a bit. While laying in bed, I felt a radiating pain across the bottom of my stomach. Totally not like cramps but I knew what they were. I opened one of my many pregnancy apps and began to time my contractions. They were roughly 2-3 minutes apart. By this time, C noticed that I was gone for quite a bit of time and she came into the bedroom to find out what was going on. She saw me timing contractions and asked how far apart they were. They were between 2-3 minutes apart. I got up and figured I would try to pee. I waddled to the bathroom, sat on the toilet and heard and felt a little pop. All of a sudden, I felt a bunch of liquid begin to trickle down into the toilet. C was in the living room folding blankets by now and I screamed out, “Babe!!! I think my water broke!” She ran to the bathroom immediately and asked if I was serious. I asked her if she heard the trickling liquid hitting the toilet water and I told her that that was not me peeing. I wiped and saw a clear mucus with a pink tinge. Realizing that this was it, C called the on call doctor and they told us to head to labor and delivery. Funny enough, my water broke at 11:22 pm and C’s birthday is 11/22!!!

    We arrived at the hospital a little after midnight and was triaged. The triage nurse checked me and my water had definitely broken. I was also 100% effaced. We sat in triage until my labor room was ready and then they wheeled me down the hall. I initially went into this pregnancy saying that I didn’t want any drugs and that I wanted to do it natural. That crap changed as soon as the pain hit! The contractions weren’t that bad but it was the back pain that was doing me in. Although baby girl was head down, her head was facing my right side which caused tons of back pain. They hit me with drugs and C and I turned off the lights and settled in for a nap. We knew it was going to be a long night. We did notify family of where we were and what was going on but we told them to stay home and get some rest until I progressed a bit more.

    My mother arrived at the hospital around 4:30 am and all I could do was laugh to myself knowing she wouldn’t follow directions. C went to escort her from the lobby to the labor room and the nurse checked me again. 4 cm! I could now get the epidural! The anesthesiologist was called and the epidural was put it… I continued to labor and suck on ice chips. My in laws arrived and eventually my best friend showed up. Every now and again the anesthesiologist had to come back in to top off my epidural because it wasn’t working correctly. Dr. Allen arrived early the next morning full of smiles! There was no longer a need for my scheduled induction! I continued to labor while they had me switching positions to try to get Baby C in a better position. I dilated slowly. I think I was 8 cm around the time the 5 o’clock news came on. But… My cervix was now swollen. The nurses grabbed my OB and she told me what was going on. She suggested that I try to push down while she pushed up on my cervix to see if she good get rid of the swelling. We pushed twice and the swelling didn’t go away. At this point, I had been in active labor for about 13 hours. I was extremely exhausted, still feeling pain and simply wanting to meet my baby. I asked what was plan B and she said caesarean. I looked at C and asked if she was alright with that. We agreed and Dr. Allen grabbed the consent forms. I signed where needed and they took me off to prep for surgery while C suited up in her scrubs and escorted our family off to the waiting area.

    And here’s where the fun begins… I felt myself falling asleep as they wheeled me into the operating room. I began to cry and panic. I kept telling the nurses and the anesthesiologist that I wanted to be awake when they took the baby out. They assured me that I wouldn’t fall asleep but I told them that I had already started to drift off. At this point, I was laboring for over 14 hours and I was beyond exhausted. I’m not sure if my body was simply trying to rest or if it was the anesthesia that was making me drowsy. They wheeled me to the operating table and although I remember moving my legs and lifting my body to help transfer me from one table to the other, I remember someone saying that I shouldn’t have been able to do that. They got me situated and the anesthesiologist explained to me that he was gonna numb me from my stomach down and test to make sure I couldn’t feel anything. I coached myself into relaxing and settled in. I felt him pinch my chest, then the top of my belly by my solar plexus, then he pinched the bottom of my belly by my womb but I didn’t feel anything. I don’t remember too much about my actual caesarean after this point. C said they brought her in and she was by my side. She said she assured me that she was there and that I lightly squeezed her hand. I remember feeling like I had to vomit and then seeing a bright white light. In all honesty, it could’ve just been the surgery lights over top of me but in my mind, I saw “the white light.” I remember someone putting a suction instrument in my mouth. I saw myself outside of myself and just knew that I choked on my own vomit and died in delivery. I kept telling myself that that couldn’t be the end and that I needed to go back for my family. Then, I saw the nurses standing around me. I kept reading their name badges out loud to try to bring myself out of my state of grogginess. I was so happy to be back on this side but I hadn’t seen my baby yet. It felt like hours before I finally saw our little girl. When C finally brought her to me, I asked her for the anointing oil. While still heavily sedated, I anointed baby girl’s forehead and said a small prayer over her. They brought family in one by one so that they could see her but then they had to leave since it was after visiting hours. Baby C was born at 7:24pm on March 21, 2013.

    Now, I said I don’t remember much but according to C, my delivery was like a scene out of the Exorcism of Emily Rose. She said that after she reassured me that she was by my side and squeezing her hand I laid still on the table for a few. Then, suddenly, I started to lift my body off of the table and motioning my mouth as if I was screaming but no sound was being emitted. C asked if I could feel anything and they told her that I was sedated and that I couldn’t feel a thing. C said I was motioning as if I was going to vomit so they put a pan near my mouth. She said my tongue appeared as if I was seizing. They put a suction tube in my mouth. C said that at one point I tried to reach around the blue curtain to where my open abdomen was… Really scary shit, right? Everyone assured C that I couldn’t feel a thing and they all asked me to tell them where it hurts. They figured I couldn’t handle the anxiety of the surgery and decided that they had to put me all the way under in order to complete the caesarean. C said the anesthesiologist put a milky substance, which we later found out was propofol, into my IV and I was totally sedated. No watching them hold up my baby girl once she was out… C cut the cord and had to decide whose side she wanted to be by… She said she took one look at me and Dr. Allen and she knew that I was in good hands.

    I remember coming to and reading all of the nurses name badges out loud. I was just making sure I was still alive and alert. It was late, they wheeled us all to our postpartum room and then they whisked my baby off for her testing. They said it had to be done within a 4 hour window of her birth and there was only 25 minutes left. Baby girl C weighed in at 7lbs 13.8ozs. She was 20.5 inches long and had a head circumference of 35. She came out of my belly eyes open, fully alert and suckling… I’m so looking forward to life with this little Aries fireball! She’s pink in color for right now and has this high pitched squeal unlike any other, for this, I call her piglet.

    All in all, our first date became our last date before we welcomed our daughter into our family. Full circle. Completion.

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