… in advance

Clearly I don’t log in here or blog enough. Every time I come back it’s apparent that I’ve forgotten my password. I’m promising to do better.

DISCLAIMER: This may will be a long entry.

First and foremost, what you’ve all been waiting for… We aren’t pregnant… YET. I say yet because we both are more than positive and hopeful. As I was driving in to work this morning Marvin Sapp’s song “Praise Him In Advance” came on the radio and I immediately cranked up the volume and started SANGIN’! A feeling of overwhelming joy filled my spirit and I knew that all would be alright. Most importantly, I heard God whisper in my ear to not give up hope because what ever my problem is, He has the power, authority and capabilities to solve, fix or resolve them. Baby included. I’ve read story upon story of how he made many barren women of the Bible able to become pregnant with child. Even more recently, everyone around me is getting pregnant and if He does it for them then I know that He will do the same for me. So, as the song says, “I’ve had my share of ups and downs, times when there was no one around, God came and spoke these words to me, praise will confuse the enemy. I started singing, I started clapping, I started dancing, people were laughing, they knew my problems, they knew my pain, but I knew God would take them away.”

That’s right, praise WILL indeed confuse the enemy. So I encourage you all to start celebrating your victories in advance. Celebrate your BFP’s in advance. Don’t let the enemy of depression or anger or frustration get the upper hand. Toss a monkey wrench in that bad boys plan and start celebrating. Not only will the nay sayers or “enemies” become confused, you will feel much better. Trust me. Yes, we got a BFN this cycle, but the blow was no where as detrimental as last month. We took that bit of information and immediately began to devise a plan of “attack” for next cycle. CD1 I began researching the Clear Blue Easy Fertility Monitor. C and I had an in depth discussion about the internet OPK’s that we have been using for the past 4 cycles and they don’t give us enough assurance so we decided to use the Clear Blue Easy Digital OPK’s with the smiley’s but I went a step further and asked what the difference was between the Digital OPK’s and the Monitor. To the internet I went. At $150 a pop I knew I had to find it a bit cheaper but it seemed like this little “machine” would give us the assurance that we were looking for. I found one on Craigslist for $80. It was around 8 am and she had JUST posted the add around 4:50 am. Talk about God working… Any who, I asked would she be willing to drop the price to $70 if I picked it up today with cash and she said yes. So, I immediately drove the 30 some odd minutes to grab our new baby making “machine” timer. She was so sweet and her dogs were cute. She took me inside her home and explained it all to me. She even gave me the 4 test sticks that she had left over.

So, here we are on CD3 and ready to go back at it full force. I’ve gone back to BBT every morning and now I have the extra info from the fertility monitor to add on to my chart. We were able to find the test sticks at one store but I wanted to see if I could find them at another chain for a bit cheaper before I bought them. I’ll make a few calls today and if not I’ll go back to where we originally saw them and scoop them up. I’m praying that no one went in the store since Tuesday and scooped up all 3 boxes. I called a fertility specialist for an appointment as well and I have pics of my cervix and the charts from my last 7 cycles printed out to take with me. Unfortunately, she can’t see me until the 14th of May and we will have done a round of inseminations before then hopefully. Maybe while laying on the table she will tell me that we are pregnant. 🙂

C has been reading up extensively on inseminating to make sure she does everything just right this time so with all of this additional knowledge I know we are all set. We are claiming our victory as mommies! Life is still moving forward and we are even closer to our wedding day then the last time I blogged. Date and time has been all set at the court house. We have joked about a shot gun wedding. LOL. It just may happen and I’m totally fine with that.

So, I’ve let you in on all of that to say this, regardless of your situation/problem praise God and celebrate in advance of your victory. Know that you will over come this hurdle and that God will not steer you wrong. Things all happen for a reason and in order of the way it has been written. I will say that TTC will indeed make you cleave to your spouse and your God/faith more than ever. If anything, you will have a stronger spiritual relationship with your higher power and a much deeper connection with your partner. These are needed and TTC is not a process for the weak at heart!

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3 thoughts on “… in advance

  1. Crystal says:

    I’m so glad you guys are maintaining a positive attitude, it will really make all the difference! And ditto on the process not being for the weak at heart!

  2. Nikkya says:

    Your positive energy, thoughts and outlook will bring you and C abundance. God will fill your plate with all you can handle. beautiful….

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